2008 is heading towards an end.....as usual....all the previous years ended and all the near and dear ones wished their near and dear ones Happy New Year.
Time for that again....some merriment....year ending bash and accepting the new one with a bang......somehow all has become a part of the custom....whatever it may mean....what ever the going year has meant to them....or what ever the coming one may have in store.
2008 for is like a very forgettable year with some unforgettable events............national, international or personal.
the world got a black Big Boss, developed countries crushed and declared bankrupt, India finalized N-deal with USA, Chandrayan reached moon, Manmohan Singh government scraped through after his Left friends withdrew, Bangladesh returned to democracy.......
And India was marred by repeated terror attacks...worst being 26/11.......Mumbai shook the whole nation...and we salute the brave hearts who belittled their lives so that we could wirte and discuss in safety about their valiant deeds....and as usual our politicians established new new milestones in idiotic gestures and callousness.
and ofcourse Nano left West Bengal and Tata blamed Bengal's favourite didi for his exit while ruling dada licking his wounds.....
DADA left cricket...thereby leaving a huge void in Bengal's icon-all identity.
I got a few new friends, lost some, experienced various things, studied as i have been doing for last 20 years....and yes I turned 23 ....lolzz
2009 approaching....and we hope it will be another year of "alright"....I mean....we accept each and every year with a bang....and all leave us in a limbo...what do we really get?
the New Big Boss will start operationg next year with a new team....but will there be any real effective changes in the world politics?
Democratic Bangladesh will work again....but will that stop infiltration and make us a bit more safe?
well 2009 will see America continuing to boss over, Venezuela rebelling along with Cuba, Britains and India following big brother like obedient younger step siblings, India will have a new government under some obscure leader as the country has been having since time immemorial, Bengal perhaps will see new political reallignment...but that for remaining as it is today......terrorists will continue attacking us, our politicians will fight for their share to grab the situation and put their face on the screen reading condolances, Bollywood will give some duds and some mindless box-office hits....some good films and actors will bag good prizes......new scandals will open up.....some good people will again emerge and a few of them will make it to the news papers ....and even fewer will be rewarded....I will get new friends....definitely lose out some......
well well...my MA part 1 results will be atlast published after many many months....(ouch).....I'll sit for part 2 and results for them will also be out(ouch ouch!!)......me, like thousands will go around jobless...and all will be alright!!!
some good cricketers will retire and media will make them living legends while athletics will go on unnoticed....India will slip a few ranks again in football and some Subhas Chakraborty will try to bring Pele to Kolkata this time.........we will continue to live...some will stop doing that
But who can say?...there may be some thing more....something more exciting......monotony is perpetual...but good can happen any time...and we will live hoping for that.....some day good will usher.....and time will take care of all....and all will be fine....
so welcome 2009.....
a warm and Happy New Year to all........
may 2009 prove to be bit different....with a new lease of life....free from this mediocricity ....
all will be well.......
Happy new year again... :-)
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Sunday, December 28, 2008
My Tryst With Nothingness...
Nothing happened today. Probably that is what actually happens in the out and out mundane reality of our daily routine...a magnificent NOTHING!!!
Lazy days often tend to get vicious. It drags you down to those muddy lanes that u would otherwise love to avoid. I tried. Really!! But today I couldn't. Sitting idle and leafing through Collection of Harold Pinter's Plays I kept thinking what I got since I had a tryst with this wonder machine --computer...
A whole new world has opened up no doubt. A book worm that I used to be, tried something new...shuffling through project works and critics' comments clicking on the internet links. But that has made me all the more lazy...I usually spent my afternoons at the R.K.M library or BCL....and those countless cigarettes and pot full teas....often that provided me a good excuse to sneak out with Paramita!!!.....I didn't say about her till then at home!!! How I miss them...lolzzz
I really cannot don enough courage to smoke at home. Also have developed eye infection with my eyes fixed on the screen for so long....
well....this is an obvious change,...but the biggest one i think lies elsewhere......
well I'm blogging.....so getting a bit social i suppose???
To be frank, nothing can match the change it has occurred to me as a social being!!!
It has brought out the other 'me'. I used to be the shy, introvert guy, who would rarely mix. Had a very close group of friends...and everything with them. My world revolved around them only....they were my life....until this ORKUT happened to me!!
Friends after friends...so many people....so many types.....so many dreams.....its a feast. In no time I became a complete addict. Joining communities...chatting....making new fiends....new hopes......and in the process I have learnt a completely new definition of friendship. Really don't know wrong or right....never thought whether good or bad.....but sure I loved making friends....and as I always do....went on doing till I went overboard.
I was just so silly.... never realized what is possible and what is not...never bothered the fact its reality and it will take the reverse turn invariably.....n I'll fail miserably...
I searched for some long long lost relation. Thought I got that. Loved that. Cherished that. And lost......I failed...my fault....couldn't realize that what was for me somewhat reliving my past....and re-loving those memories, that once I loved so dearly....may just be a liability for another!!! Expected too much attention from someone...who even the other day would have been a stranger...never thought of his obligations...or that he may have his own priories. He has every right to do so.....I was on my fantasy spree. Substituted my real identity with the virtual one and in that make belief reality I was only meandering blind alleys till I realized that I was entrapped in an abyss of magnificent nothingness. I usurped reality. I neglected those who probably had waited for me while I was on my fantasy ordeal. And I was punished. No, I am not a victim. I was only made aware that my world, my identity lies elsewhere. I love my friends. really I do. But i think, I also need to prioritize...at least a bit...as once someone said....I cannot balance all, all are not under my control ... even if I can, I cannot make everyone happy. So better make myself happy...what say? A happy me will automatically cheer up my friends. And those who will still remain gloomy?....well they probably were not my friends at all!!! Yet i'll love them...I cannot help....!
Lazy days often tend to get vicious. It drags you down to those muddy lanes that u would otherwise love to avoid. I tried. Really!! But today I couldn't. Sitting idle and leafing through Collection of Harold Pinter's Plays I kept thinking what I got since I had a tryst with this wonder machine --computer...
A whole new world has opened up no doubt. A book worm that I used to be, tried something new...shuffling through project works and critics' comments clicking on the internet links. But that has made me all the more lazy...I usually spent my afternoons at the R.K.M library or BCL....and those countless cigarettes and pot full teas....often that provided me a good excuse to sneak out with Paramita!!!.....I didn't say about her till then at home!!! How I miss them...lolzzz
I really cannot don enough courage to smoke at home. Also have developed eye infection with my eyes fixed on the screen for so long....
well....this is an obvious change,...but the biggest one i think lies elsewhere......
well I'm blogging.....so getting a bit social i suppose???
To be frank, nothing can match the change it has occurred to me as a social being!!!
It has brought out the other 'me'. I used to be the shy, introvert guy, who would rarely mix. Had a very close group of friends...and everything with them. My world revolved around them only....they were my life....until this ORKUT happened to me!!
Friends after friends...so many people....so many types.....so many dreams.....its a feast. In no time I became a complete addict. Joining communities...chatting....making new fiends....new hopes......and in the process I have learnt a completely new definition of friendship. Really don't know wrong or right....never thought whether good or bad.....but sure I loved making friends....and as I always do....went on doing till I went overboard.
I was just so silly.... never realized what is possible and what is not...never bothered the fact its reality and it will take the reverse turn invariably.....n I'll fail miserably...
I searched for some long long lost relation. Thought I got that. Loved that. Cherished that. And lost......I failed...my fault....couldn't realize that what was for me somewhat reliving my past....and re-loving those memories, that once I loved so dearly....may just be a liability for another!!! Expected too much attention from someone...who even the other day would have been a stranger...never thought of his obligations...or that he may have his own priories. He has every right to do so.....I was on my fantasy spree. Substituted my real identity with the virtual one and in that make belief reality I was only meandering blind alleys till I realized that I was entrapped in an abyss of magnificent nothingness. I usurped reality. I neglected those who probably had waited for me while I was on my fantasy ordeal. And I was punished. No, I am not a victim. I was only made aware that my world, my identity lies elsewhere. I love my friends. really I do. But i think, I also need to prioritize...at least a bit...as once someone said....I cannot balance all, all are not under my control ... even if I can, I cannot make everyone happy. So better make myself happy...what say? A happy me will automatically cheer up my friends. And those who will still remain gloomy?....well they probably were not my friends at all!!! Yet i'll love them...I cannot help....!
Bangla Begums Battle Out
Today is a big day.....for the Bengalis??
well that's surely a question...
ok lets be true to ourselves....today is indeed a big day for their Bengal.
Bangladesh votes today....n its a straight battle between two ladies.
so the two Bengali Tigress....Shiekh Hasina Wajed and Begum Khaleda Zia.
sure the Bengali Begums are fighting for their pie. Hasina, the eldest daughter of the Father of 'their' nation, n Zia the widow of once President.
we often look for symbol....we remain happy that we grant something symbolically to someone n that means a whole lot of things for them....not only the recipient, but the sect that he or she may represent.
that may be the case here also.The Begums are fighting....one will win....be the PM for next 5 years....they had been....but what about those unsung begums...lakhs n thousands of them? fighting their life out daily .....just for living?
Even in our Bengal, some obscure begum Firoza Bibi will take on the mighty administration early next year in Nandigram.....but will that grant her all that she wants?..or the sect she is representing.....rather aspire to represent all that they thrive for?
do they really thrive for anything?...atleast for themelves?
once i came across an article in a widely circulated magazine Desh that majority of our rural women thinks that their husbands enjoy the right to beat them as they earn the bread for the family.....they dont even realise only earning will never do alone unless they r cooked well n their lies her contribution too.
Moreover who has ever said she cannot be the bread earner?
Firoza bibi is a symbol...she the bereaved mother of a martyr.....mother of a son who laid her life in the fight for land.....she has been nominated just for that tag....n nobody has any problems admitting that. But what she is?
a mother who had spent endless nights giving her son a sound sleep...or atleast tried to do so?
a wife who silently followed the orders of the patriarch probably and became a mother?
now a mother who would reap gains for someone else...but why not for her?....why not for those endless number of women who never even think that they are individuals?...that they have a life that they have every right to live in their own way?...why not?
we talk so much....and we remain happy thinking that women r doing so well in every front...but does a Sobhaa De or an Arundhati Roy or for that matter a Medha Patekar or those hugely powerful Bengali Begums do anything for them?
will they ever make them realise what they have achieved, could have been achieved by those unsung heroines if they were provided the same opportunities?..will they ever take part in their daily battles against poverty? against those inhuman strictures thrust upon them by this phallo-centric society?
probably no....because they even relish the fact these women are downtrodden....n just because they are there they have something to do....something to project n reap their own gains.
That may sound harsh, but isnt that true?
Is feminism all about how comfortably a woman can wear a skimpy dress n walk down Garihat Road?...well nothing against a super short dress...but what would a Firoza Bibi know about a male gaze?
its a part of their life, and they unknowingly they know that it happens....why they know not...will these "powerful" women ever take the hardship to let her know that har body is hers only n not for male gaze?
I came across a friend whose family was against love marriage because "the girls who fall in love r voluptuous....good ones wait for arranged marriage".....laughing?
buts its true dear....eradicating this is an uphill task.....it is never sufficient to qiuz a made up beauty about man-woman relationship and male gaze and publish them in Page 1.
today the Bengali Begum will definitely get their due...one will win...another will not lose certainly....
But Begum Bangla probably will continue to fight....unless we the so called voice lenders of women empowerment realise that work lies in the field...and not in those AC rooms......
Firoza Bibis will continue to remain symbolic for someone else's power.....and we will be secured that we have mothers n sisters n wives to reap us our gains but never asking for a share in our glory.
sure the Bengali Begums are fighting for their pie. Hasina, the eldest daughter of the Father of 'their' nation, n Zia the widow of once President.
we often look for symbol....we remain happy that we grant something symbolically to someone n that means a whole lot of things for them....not only the recipient, but the sect that he or she may represent.
that may be the case here also.The Begums are fighting....one will win....be the PM for next 5 years....they had been....but what about those unsung begums...lakhs n thousands of them? fighting their life out daily .....just for living?
Even in our Bengal, some obscure begum Firoza Bibi will take on the mighty administration early next year in Nandigram.....but will that grant her all that she wants?..or the sect she is representing.....rather aspire to represent all that they thrive for?
do they really thrive for anything?...atleast for themelves?
once i came across an article in a widely circulated magazine Desh that majority of our rural women thinks that their husbands enjoy the right to beat them as they earn the bread for the family.....they dont even realise only earning will never do alone unless they r cooked well n their lies her contribution too.
Moreover who has ever said she cannot be the bread earner?
Firoza bibi is a symbol...she the bereaved mother of a martyr.....mother of a son who laid her life in the fight for land.....she has been nominated just for that tag....n nobody has any problems admitting that. But what she is?
a mother who had spent endless nights giving her son a sound sleep...or atleast tried to do so?
a wife who silently followed the orders of the patriarch probably and became a mother?
now a mother who would reap gains for someone else...but why not for her?....why not for those endless number of women who never even think that they are individuals?...that they have a life that they have every right to live in their own way?...why not?
we talk so much....and we remain happy thinking that women r doing so well in every front...but does a Sobhaa De or an Arundhati Roy or for that matter a Medha Patekar or those hugely powerful Bengali Begums do anything for them?
will they ever make them realise what they have achieved, could have been achieved by those unsung heroines if they were provided the same opportunities?..will they ever take part in their daily battles against poverty? against those inhuman strictures thrust upon them by this phallo-centric society?
probably no....because they even relish the fact these women are downtrodden....n just because they are there they have something to do....something to project n reap their own gains.
That may sound harsh, but isnt that true?
Is feminism all about how comfortably a woman can wear a skimpy dress n walk down Garihat Road?...well nothing against a super short dress...but what would a Firoza Bibi know about a male gaze?
its a part of their life, and they unknowingly they know that it happens....why they know not...will these "powerful" women ever take the hardship to let her know that har body is hers only n not for male gaze?
I came across a friend whose family was against love marriage because "the girls who fall in love r voluptuous....good ones wait for arranged marriage".....laughing?
buts its true dear....eradicating this is an uphill task.....it is never sufficient to qiuz a made up beauty about man-woman relationship and male gaze and publish them in Page 1.
today the Bengali Begum will definitely get their due...one will win...another will not lose certainly....
But Begum Bangla probably will continue to fight....unless we the so called voice lenders of women empowerment realise that work lies in the field...and not in those AC rooms......
Firoza Bibis will continue to remain symbolic for someone else's power.....and we will be secured that we have mothers n sisters n wives to reap us our gains but never asking for a share in our glory.
Saturday, April 12, 2008
INCEPTION
yep....i start it today only....im not an ardent techie...so cant be sure how long will this new found love persist...hope to continue
but as i know...probably some of u would know...what i think...or rather hope....reality takes just the opposite turn.......nor that i really rue the fact.....im rather habituated ....
hmmmmmmmm..so why a new blog?...or may be to put it more perfectly why blogging at all?.....
well i think there happens to be a large disparity between perceptions that exist about me....i mean very many of my friends do believe me in a way which may be stark different to each other....
i have no intentions to bring them in a line ...but cant i expect people who think i can be some way or the other a friend of them at least......know me the way i think i am?
precisely this is the reason im trying out this absolutely new venture....
would love ur cooperation
i love my friends.....those who r with me...those who have left me
i love them...i miss them.....i care...really....i cant help but only think one day all will be fine.....but as i said...reality takes just the opposite turn.....
better i start doing what i do the best....writting gibberish...n get on ur nerves...
next day onwards i will start....if i feel the impulse...i may start it today also....
i cant help
thinking a bit eccentric?
so i am!!!
but as i know...probably some of u would know...what i think...or rather hope....reality takes just the opposite turn.......nor that i really rue the fact.....im rather habituated ....
hmmmmmmmm..so why a new blog?...or may be to put it more perfectly why blogging at all?.....
well i think there happens to be a large disparity between perceptions that exist about me....i mean very many of my friends do believe me in a way which may be stark different to each other....
i have no intentions to bring them in a line ...but cant i expect people who think i can be some way or the other a friend of them at least......know me the way i think i am?
precisely this is the reason im trying out this absolutely new venture....
would love ur cooperation
i love my friends.....those who r with me...those who have left me
i love them...i miss them.....i care...really....i cant help but only think one day all will be fine.....but as i said...reality takes just the opposite turn.....
better i start doing what i do the best....writting gibberish...n get on ur nerves...
next day onwards i will start....if i feel the impulse...i may start it today also....
i cant help
thinking a bit eccentric?
so i am!!!
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